September 20, 2007

  • Well, I’m slowly adjusting to my new way of life.  I don’t seem to be as stressed as I was before, but I still feel such a sadness over not having the job I want to have.  Teaching the babies at John Cooper is ok…the kids are precious…it’s just not what I want to do.  And the thought that this may be my last year at Mitchell is totally overwhelming…I don’t know what I’ll do if I can’t get back to Mitchell full time. 

    The boys are doing wonderfully in school.  Jay comes home every weekend…not sure that he has found his niche up there yet…but I like it that he wants to come home. 

    Jason got a promotion at work and he is just so excited about becoming a Dad that my heart bursts with joy!  It is so cool to be in the place that David and I are.  I wish we lived closer to Jason & Valerie so that we could share every single step of the way.  But Valerie is such a great daughter in law.  They are going for their first ultrasound next Wednesday and she told me that she was going to call me while they were doing it so I could feel like a part of the whole thing.  How great is that?  It might not work out if the doc is running late, but she said she would send pictures if it didn’t work out. 

    Went and got my hair cut today and it is really too short for my liking.  Good thing hair grows!  I had just gotten used to the length is was and I know that in order for me to go more than 4 weeks between cuts, I have to have it a little short, but man…I hope it grows fast.  Also, once she cut it all my gray showed through, so I came home and colored it and now it’s way too dark…LOL…it’s always such a saga with my hair!  The box said “light golden brown” and it turned out a deep red…go figure…at least it’s not a permanent color and will fade after about 22 washes….so many people just want me to let it go and be gray, but I don’t think I look good with it gray…I’m not ready for that yet!!

    Ok…gotta go get some shut eye…all I’m going to hear tomorrow is “Did you get a hair cut?   Why is your hair so dark?  I liked it better the other way!”  LOL…maybe I should just stay home!!

September 18, 2007

  • HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY

    JASON

    We love you and are proud to call you our son!
    Sending you hugs and love across the gulf!!
    Mom and Dad

September 5, 2007

  • With God’s protection and blessing, David and I will become GRANDPARENTS sometime around May 14, 2008!!

    How incredible is that???  God is good!!!

    The happy, expectant couple:

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September 3, 2007

September 1, 2007

  • It’s the weekend again…yea!  Jay is already home.  Jacob will be coming home tomorrow.  Jacob will be celebrating his 22nd birthday on Monday…that is so hard for me to believe.

    It’s nice to have a long weekend to look forward to. 

    This week was somewhat better.  I think I did fine until yesterday…but it has been very hard to leave Mitchell every day and then when I come back the next morning, things are all different and I don’t know what’s going on because I wasn’t there all afternoon. 

    On the positive side, we had 103 5th graders come for 5th grade choir on Wednesday and around 18 boys showed up for Boy’s Choir.  Those are really good numbers.  I’m sure we will have more boys than that before it is all said and done. 

    The little 1st graders at JC are warming up to me.  I’m really not liking being on the stage.  There really isn’t enough room and I don’t really have any place to go to do planning, etc. 

    Beginning Tuesday, I will have my full load there…the pre-kindergarten and kindergarten will begin music next week.  Plus, Connie and I will be holding auditions for the Honor Choir every afternoon next week, so after I finish up with JC, I’ll be heading back to Mitchell.

    On a sad note, I got my first pay stub from CISD today….rather than go into too much detail, let’s just say I am now making $1000 less per paycheck than I was last year.  My paycheck from JC was pretty decent considering the hours I am there, but when you total the two up, I’m still making about $800 less a month than what I did last year.  That was pretty depressing for me.

    But…like I said, I am going to try to stay positive about it all.  I’m praying a very special prayer of protection around my family, because right now if something happened to anyone, I would be a nut case.  I am praying that God will give me back my full time job at Mitchell with Connie still being there.  And I’m praying that God will show David where he wants him to be job-wise.  I am praying that God will give David a job that he is excited to go to every day and that he will make at least what he made at his former place of employment and that he will have really great benefits.  No, I don’t believe I am asking too much…Chuztpah…

August 25, 2007

  • Well, I survived the first week of CISD Inservice/beginning of the year for John Cooper.  Through many hours of angst, upset stomach, and thousands of tears, I did make it.  The tears were those of fear, anxiety, and largely a sadness over not having what I have had the past two years.  They were also the result of just not feeling quite adequate enough for the John Cooper School.

    Yes, I am very well known for stressing myself out and I have had many years of practice doing it and have had wonderful role models!

    The tears have also been a huge part of the empty nest syndrome.  The house has been very quiet and vacant.  Most people I talk to say this doesn’t last and that you eventually get used to it…I’m not there yet…

    David has been my rock.  He has been so supportive and has provided his strong shoulder for me to collapse upon and cry my eyes out almost every day. 

    I am going to start trying to live the following statement that I learned from Bob Horton:
    “Act yourself into a way of thinking”
    I think I need to have this posted in front of me 24/7.

    I did teach all of my first grade classes this past week.  They are precious and oh so small and wiggly.  I had forgotten alot of that!  Next week I will be with Connie in the mornings to help her teach 6th grade and travel to JC to teach the first graders.  Pre-K and Kindergarten will not start music classes until after Labor Day. 

    The boys came home yesterday…it’s been so great to get some hugs from them and talk over how their first week of college went.  Jay says he likes it and Jacob says Jay is doing very well.  I’m so glad to know that…

    I have some things I have to do over the weekend to get ready for the first day of classes at Mitchell, but other than that, I am going to enjoy my boys and relax and try NOT to stress myself out…

    Hugs

August 17, 2007

  • Thanks everyone for the kind words.  They did alot to raise my hopes.  I am so blessed and so thankful for all that is right in my life.  I know who gets the credit for all of that.  I’m just in a real funk and hope that I can come out of it soon.  It’s so much more than just the kids being gone…it’s a sadness over losing the job I loved so much and anxiety of going to a new job where I don’t know anyone, etc, etc…

    Thanks again…and keep those prayers going up…they do wonders!

August 16, 2007

  • My heart is so heavy…it feels like it’s breaking…
    We just took our last two boys up to college. 
    There are no more children at home.
    I’m just so sad.

August 14, 2007

  • I got the part time music teacher position at the John Cooper School. 

    Busy today getting room ready at Mitchell and probably trying to go by Cooper to try and meet some people and get some ideas on curriculum.

    We are down to the last two days of having the boys here at home with us. 
    Nuff said about that one…

August 11, 2007

  • Had a very full day yesterday.  By the end of the afternoon I had received a phone call from the music teacher at John Cooper ‘unofficially’ welcoming me to their staff.  The other two people I interviewed with yesterday were the Upper School Choir Director and the Head of the Fine Arts Dept.  They all three recommended me to the principal as the one for this part time position.  Now the principal has to meet with the Head Master of the whole school.  And that will happen Monday.  So it looks like it’s a done deal and I should know for sure on Monday.  I was sick to my stomach all day yesterday.  As most of you know, I don’t like change…anything new scares me to death and puts my stomach in knots.  So…that’s where I’m at.  It matters not that people tell me I’m great at what I do and that I will be wonderful at this…I still freak out.  I am scared of walking in that first day not knowing anyone except the teachers that interviewed with me.  None of them will be available to greet me as they will be teaching their own classes.  I am not available to go to their new teacher introduction on Thursday because I am in the middle of Mitchell’s Choir Camp and after that we are taking the boys to college.  I’ve got to find some time to get over there and meet these teachers of the kids that I will be teaching.  Words of encouragement are very welcome, but just know I will probably still be freaking out over this until at least mid September!

    David woke up this morning and went out to find that some kids had keyed the word ‘bitch’ on the side of Jay’s car and spray painted it with the same words on the windows.  The patrol car of the policeman that lives behind us had the same thing except I think the words were ‘pig’ on his car.  David pulled Jay’s car into the garage and buffed out the word and got most of the paint off of it.  He has been outside working on it ever since he got back from the grocery store.  He talked to Felix (the policeman that lives behind us) and he told David that there were a couple of others here in the neighborhood that had damage done to their cars.  Felix didn’t get home until after 4 am, so it had to happen some time after that.  Jacob had been to a party up in Huntsville and he said he got home around 4 am, but there was no damage done to his jeep.  It just angers me that people don’t respect other people’s property…

    Ok, now it’s gross out time…my sister sent me a picture of my Dad’s sutured head from when he fell last Tuesday…don’t go any further if you have a weak stomach!!

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    Dad's injury 1

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